The most important relationship one can have, excluding their relationship with God, is with themselves. Your relationship with self will determine the success or failure for relationships with others; whether personal, professional, platonic, intimate, social, or spiritual.
Irrevocably broken relationships from the past caused me to take a deeper look and examine my relationship with myself and how I relate to others externally. Because I had become so accustomed to being rejected by others going back to childhood, I learned to reject my own authentic feelings. Burying my feelings, and not acknowledging them as a form of self-protection was ultimately suffocating the essence of who I am as a person. My disjointed soul mastered the art of self-deception. Although, I’d made strides towards uncovering, acknowledging and accepting who I was and now am. Anytime I hit a wall or was challenged, I retreated; creating a watered-down facade. Suppressing the free-spirited woman, replacing her with a controlled, seemingly unbothered, emotionless woman. Doing the work to reclaim that woman has been an interesting journey.
I was challenged by someone near and dear to my heart that caused me to really dig deep to rediscover who God originally created me to be. I am continually embracing all aspects of “Michelle” as I rediscover them… not all good, but all me – the good, the bad and the ugly.
I am loving myself holistically; not only externally, but internally and eternally. No longer attempting to prove myself worthy. I am already worthy in the eyes of THE ONE (God) and those that matter; including me.
I love me which helps me to love others; not based on their ability to love me back, but based on the ability I have to love my imperfect self. Which causes me to love the imperfections of others all the more. Self-revelation is a beautiful and continual thing.
How is your relationship with yourself? Self-examination time.